MY TESTIMONY

MY TESTIMONIAL BY LISSA LYNN



JULY 13,2005
I FOUND MYSELF NOT WANTING TO LIVE ANYMORE. DRUGS HAD TAKEN OVER MY LIFE FOR ABOUT A YEAR OR SO NOTHING MATTERD IN LIFE TO ME ANY LONGER. I HAD BEEN RAPED BY A SO CALLED SOMEWHAT FAMILY MEMBER SHALL I SAY AND EVERYONE SAID IT WAS MY OWN FAULT BECAUSE IF I HADNT BEEN SO STRUNG OUT ON DRUGS THAT IT NEVER WOULD HAVE HAPPENDED. I REALLY FELT ASHAMED OF MYSELF. MY EX HUSBAND TOLD ME THAT I SHOULD CONSIDER CHECKING MYSELF INTO DRUG REHAB. I LAUGHED AND SAID I DONT NEED ANYONES HELP I CAN DO THIS ON MY OWN. MY DAUGHTER THEN CAME TO ME AND ASKED TO PLEASE DO IT FOR HER AT THAT MOMENT I DECIDED I NEED TO MAKES SOME CHANGES IN MY LIFE BECAUSE I LOVED HER AND NEEDED HER BUT I HAD TO DO THIS FOR ME FIRST BEFORE I COULD DO IT FOR ANYONE ELSE BUT I WOULD TRY. THAT NIGHT I SAT THERE THINKING AS I HEARD A KNOCK ON THE DOOR FROM A SO CALLED FRIEND ASKING ME IF I WANTED TO GET HIGH WITH HIM AND I CONTEMPLATED TO DO AND DONTS AND GAVE INTO TEMPTATION I GOT SO HIGH THAT NIGHT THAT I FELT ALL BETTER I WAS LONGER SAD I FELT NO MORE PAIN EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BE OK. MY FRIEND LEFT ABOUT 5 AM AND BY 7:00 A.M. ON JULY 14,2005 I HEAR ANOTHER KNOCK ON THE DOOR ONLY TO FIND MY EXHUSBAND AND MY DAUGHTER COMMING OVER TO CHECK ON ME. THEY CAME IN AND COULD IMMEDITLY TELL WAS HAD GOTTEN HIGH AGAIN AND THEY ASKED ME IF I WOULD GO FOR A RIDE WITH THEM WHERE I ENDED UP AT A DRUG REHAB IN MARSHALL TEXAS THEY WANTED ME TO JUST TALK TO SOME COUNSLER WHEN I WENT IN THEY LEFT. I FOUND OUT THAT I DID NEED HELP KICKING MY BAD HABIT, I AGREED TO STAY AND GET TREATMENT. I WAS EVALUATED AND ADMITTED AND BEEN SEEN BY THE DR. I THEN WENT TO MY ROOM CRYING AND FELL ASLEEP.

ON JULY 15, 2005 MY LIFE TOOK A DRAMATIC CHANGE. I WAS PUT INTO A DRUG REHAB IN MARSHALL TEXAS BECAUSE OF MY ADDICTION OF METHAMPHETIMINES, FOR THREE DAYS I SUFFERED FROM WITHDRAWALS BADLY. I FOUND MYSELF ASKING SOMEONE IS ALL THIS WORTH IT. A NURSE WAS STANDING OUTSIDE MY DOOR (LITTLE DID I KNOW AT THAT TIME I WAS TALKING OUTLOUD) STOOD THEIR LISTENING TO ME. I BEGAN TALKING (TO MY KNOWLEDGE) TO NOONE OTHER THAN MYSELF I LATER FOUND OUT THAT I WAS TALKING TO GOD, I DIDNT UNDERSTAND WHY SOMEONE HATED ME SO MUCH THAT THEY WOULD MAKE ME SUFFER EVERYTHING I WAS GOING THROUGH. WHY WOULD SOMEONE THAT CARED ABOUT ME PUT ME IN A AWFUL PLACE THT I WAS IN AND JUST WALK AWAY AND LEAVE ME THERE ALL ALONE. THIS NURSE THAT WAS STANDING OUTSIDE ASKED IF SHE COULD COME IN A VISIT WITH ME AND I SAID SURE WHAT DO I HAVE TO LOOSE . SHE TOLD ME ALL I NEEDED TO DO WAS TO PUT MY LIFE IN GODS HANDS AND ASK HIM TO HELP ME MAKE IT THROUGH THIS. SHE PRAYED WITH ME AND ASKED GOD TO HELP ME WITH MY STRUGGLES. AND STARTED TO CRY I CRIED SO HARD BECAUSE AT THAT MOMENT I FELT GOD OPEN MY HEART AND COME INTO MY LIFE I ACCEPTED AND I ASKED HIM TO HELP ME IN MY TIME OF NEED AND THEN CHOSE TO PUT IT ALL IN HIS HANDS. I SOMEHOW GO THE STRENGTH TO DECIDE I NEVER WANTED TO LET DRUGS OVER POWER MY JUDGEMENT AGAIN . I WENT HOME THREE WEEKS LATER AND I FELT FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE THIS WAS MY CHOICE AND I COULD DO THE RIGHT THING AND STAY CLEAN. WELL TIME HAS GONE BY AND ITS NOW JANUARY 14, 2008. 2 1/2 YEARS HAVE GONE BY AND IM STILL CLEAN AND LIVING A WONDERFUL LIFE ALL BECAUSE I CHOSE TO ACCEPT JESUS CHRIST AS MY SAVIOR ASK HIM TO GET ME THROUGH MY TROUBLED TIMES . I HAVE STARTED READING AND LEARNING MORE ABOUT THE BIBLE. I HAVE BEEN ATTENDING CHURCH , AND I AM ALMOST TO THAT POINT I WILL DEDICATE MY LIFE TO SERVING GOD. I HAVE ASKED GOD TO FORGIVE ME OF ALL MY SINS AND TRIED TO MAKE AMMENDS FOR THE THINGS I HAVE DONE WRONG IN MY PAST. I HAVE A WONDERFUL LIFE NOW BECAUSE IT INCLUDES THE GOOD LORD FROM ABOVE IN IT. I ALSO WANT TO START SPREADING THE WORD OF GOD AND THE MANY POWERFUL THINGS HE CAN DO FOR US. ALL WILL HAVE TO DO IS ASK HIM TO COME INTO OUR LIFE AND HE WILL BE THERE.....................